It’s just another late night with a lot on my mind. 

Seriously, things have been so carefree for me lately, and I’ve been.. so blissfully happy that I’ve let some things slip past my better judgment. 

Chit chatting with E tonight put everything into focus. My defence was that it wasn’t my responsibility, not my fam, not my parents, not mine, not mine, not mine - his. Blahblahblah. Weak.

It was super selfish of me and definitely inconsiderate. In the end, it affects him and he is important to me. I know they’re right and I feel silly for letting this behaviour continue. Just got caught up in everything..

However, I wish people would be more honest, it would make my life so much easier. It’s hard for me to see clearly through rose coloured glasses.